can you hear the crickets?

A cool breeze on a warm humid night

With this day.
With this feeling.
With my eyes closed.

I forget hate.
I forget anger.
I forget my imperfections.

Something washes over me,
Lighter than happiness, stronger than apathy.
I've never heard a name for it in all my life,
But I think it must be peace.

Tell me again...

I am not so light.
I am not care-free,
But the pressures I possess
Aren't sufficating me...yet
Aren't holding me down,
So give me your grievances too
Until I am found shoulder deep in the ground
Clawing to get out,
Drowning in your complaints.
Choking on my own hate.

Volume

Keep the music turned up.
I'll keep dancing, with my eyes shut tight.
Because this world where only we exist
Makes me believe in life.

Keep the music turned up.
Even if it isn't real I'm afraid of when it stops.
I can't stop to smell the roses without
Smelling the pot.

Keep the music turned up,
Until somone trips and the CD skips.
To this beat I can race through life
or crash without it.

Alone

Alone,
Like I was wishing,
is back to normal now,
The need to not,
walk or talk
was bordering on about,
to break and build a wall,
to stop the pounding.
Tell them all
Stay Back
But here they don't care,
I'm perfectly invisible.
No one needs to stare,
Attention is shielded from me
As my perfect world always would be.

Order

It's too repetitive
•continuous tasks•
to keep my attention,
•come back from the past•
I know I need to
•Essays about•
keep it together
•nothing, doubt•
And I know
•I can do it•
I can do it.